MANIA
Mind racing, isolation, cant get out of bed
Trying hard to ignore the voices in my head.
Can't eat, can't sleep, easily distracted.
Took two steps forward and 10 steps back again.
Trying to get comfortable in my skin
With guessing games if life is worth living.
Seems like every little thing is meant to hurt.
Comparing myself to others to determine my own worth.
What part in my future will my past play?
Wondering who I am today.
Got to get it together and stop stressing
So many worries, I'm breaking down, going through depression.
Always in defense mode, can't control the outbursts.
So pessimistic, always expecting the worst.
Like being in a room full of people
Screaming for help, yet, nobody hears you.
Sick of feeling empty, tired of all the crying
Going to get myself some help, putting away the pride.
Been down to the depths, contemplated suicide.
So many things about myself I have to hide.
Through the pain and tears it's hard not to hold a grudge
Things you can't comprehend, you have no right to judge.
Sometimes life doesn't go as planned.
Until you've walked in my shoes, you'll never understand.
It's not about cars, clothes, money, or wealth.
It's figuring a way for me to love myself.
